I love a challenge.
I think it’s my stubborn nature but I love a good challenge for myself and for some inexplicable reason I love taking on a challenge for Lent. I guess it’s a timeline that I can make peace with, I find it to be calming, and I’m trying to get into VIP Heaven. Last year I gave up all social media and became vegetarian. This year I’ve decided to be vegan. And I have definitely bitten off more than I can chew (ba-dum cha).
I approached this vegan project with the same neurotic obsessiveness I approach all menu planning with. I did research, made lists of recipes, created a spreadsheet of planned meals, snacks, and grocery lists. I knew that if I was going to give up cheese I needed structure. But like they say, “if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans”. I had taken account of the fact that I would be hungry and would need foods that I enjoy to fill me up. What I didn’t take account of is just how bad the cravings would be.
At this very moment as I type up this rant I am 100% sure that I would come to bodily harm to eat a cheeseburger. To eat a spoonful of mac and cheese. Honestly, to have a spoonful of yogurt. I’ve been vegetarian before and I foolishly thought that the risks would be no different. Sure you can’t have a burger, just eat some pesto (I miss you so much parmesan). Can’t have a piece of salmon? Have some yellow rice (chicken bouillon I MISS YOU). But in this current habitat I feel constantly aware of that which I can’t have. Did you know that McDonald’s fries are not vegan? Not even vegetarian? That they contain 18 ingredients?! This was a horrible realization I was brought to this weekend and I honestly almost had an emotional breakdown over the thought that I couldn’t eat fries for another month.
All of this moping is to say, I knew meat and meat-based products were a drug but now I am truly aware of the extent of their reach. I don’t drink milk I find the flavor to be rather repulsive but I could eat a stick of butter straight right now (funnily enough, I did as a child). I feel like I have an inkling of what addicts must feel like and am consuming avocado at an alarming rate. But I’m digging my heels in, attempting to get comfortable, and sticking with this thing. I’m using this as a diary of sorts and will update as the weeks pass. Also check out my Veganism Plan if you want to see how I’m attempting to tackle this diet (it’ll be updated too!)
- All I want to eat is bread and butter but I can’t have butter and don’t you dare tell me that olive oil is as good.
- I threw out all meat-related things in my fridge prior to this undertaking but couldn’t bring myself to toss my bacon. Some things are sacred (though it was tossed yesterday)
- I’ve made the mistake this week of not eating any grains and let me tell you that is a surefire way to keep yourself from feeling full
- What are you all’s thoughts on consuming honey as a vegan? I’ve heard opposing viewpoints and find this conversation necessarily distracting.
- The smell of meat cooking is too good it should be a sin.
- I had to pass a buffalo wild wings on the way to the movies this weekend and I can honestly say I’ve never wanted garlic-parmesan wings more in my life
- I went out to brunch on Sunday and had to marvel at the complete and utter lack of options in my neighborhood. At the restaurant I went to I had to get avocado toast minus the fried egg. It was still $8. I guess what they say about millenials is true. I still love avocado toast.
- I did some research and found out I can still eat Chipotle so I am now giving them all of my money
- I invested in vegan buttery sticks which amuse me to no end and I’ve been tossing pats into rice and baking with them.
- The desire for a burger and fries grows inside of me and I find it more and more difficult to resist.
- My brother was talking to me about Popeyes and I can’t even go near let alone have Popeyes in my home and I can no longer discuss it.
- Pasta without cheese can still be delicious and it also reminds me of the pasta my dad made as a kid. The nostalgia kept me going.
- Grocery shopping is a thrilling experience because not only am I actually checking labels and seeing what’s in my food; I’m also buying a rainbow of fruits and veggies and I feel so healthy
- I’m losing weight and if I have abs by the end of this, it will all be worth it.
Be good, eat happily, and wish me luck Piggies!